bursting at the seams...

dear universe,

I don't know what your plan is here, but I'm going to have to go with it. not like I have a choice or anything - well, I suppose I could buck the system and all, but I'm not going to.

so I've been at the hospital with raf for two days, well, I went to work and everything, but we got there sunday at 10 am and pretty much have set up camp. his arm blew up from a bad tattoo, and much to his dismay, I suggested the emergency room over football practice on sunday morning. he went on iv antibiotics, and I played nurse and slept in the equivalent of a mesh lawnchair for two nights. complete with offending bar mid-back and a return to full upright position whenever you weren't forcing the chair back down with your weight.

it was, to say the least, awesome in every way. but raf's alright, he got released today, and I'm about to head home for a much needed nap. that, and there's about eighty loads of laundry I haven't done that needs tending too. plus I think chacha thinks I left the country.

so thanks, universe, for that, and a friend backing out of the ben gibbard show tonight at the last minute, and my obstinate aunt wondering about the seating at brunch like a six year old holding a grudge, and an extra six pounds, and the shitty sandwich from subway today. it's been a hell of a week.

I talked with brooke for a while today. apparently it's just all in the perspective, because according to her I'm smart, beautiful, caring, sober, and I have a good head on my shoulders. that, and the boyfriend I second guess because I'm not used to being treated right actually does like me, and that we've just all got a little batch of crazy going on right now.

I think I need to sleep. from absorbing everything.

(big, tired, exaggerated sigh)

~vvb

oh, and ps - wish gregg and allyson luck tonight getting up front for the show. I hope they enjoy my tickets, and I'll enjoy the ten bucks I profited from not going. I'm sure they're quite nice and all, but right now I hate them a little bit.

and on that note, I think I'm moving to new york.