hi again.

so, um, what's going on?

me? (kicks imaginary spot on the sidewalk)

not much... except for the fact that I'm totally fucking terrified now.

totally.

ADD, ray lamontagne is going to be on letterman tonight. yay!

ADD again, I'm going to try to find ed harcourt in the used bin. they do that with stuff they opened to listen to sometimes.

the terror? we'll hope that subsides by later on. I'll try to go easy on the caffiene between now and then.

so I started Putting It Out There Officially today. I talked to my bosses, and as it turns out, they heard through the grapevine that I was looking to shake my life up. not only are they totally loving and caring, they're talking about residuals. like when you do insurance, and you don't anymore, and the people you set up policies for renew, and then you get a commission? yeah. they want to do that for me, in exchange for giving my clients to the uber-wonderful guy I work with that I have the privlege of being able to call my manager. tom. we totally and completely love tom. good egg, any way you take him.

so, in english, if I help tom out with getting him acquainted with my customers and contacts, I'll get a ride on all my future deals. in plainer english, my ten years of hard work could very well pay my rent for quite some time.

that's rokken.

did I mention how much I love the cloud room? I cannot stop listening to them. heard another track (beautiful mess, can you fucking stand it???) on KEXP today and am now counting the days until the album comes out. good thing it's actually days - five or six of them, I think.

and did I mention that aforementioned company owner's wife's brother is the vice president of a branch of nike? and that he's in portland? yeah. I wonder if they have, like, a charity department or something. where I could hand out sneakers and hoodies to homeless people.

now I forgot what I was scared of. oh right, the jumping.

(pauses)

here's to the jumping, then. it's not like I can stop halfway down, I learned that six years ago.

~vvb (who according to an online test, lacks the artistic kind of creativity and may actually have adult ADD)